freakey

short term memory loss.....
i do not know why right now, which i know i have lots of things to blog about but i feel speechless to talk to this outdated blog...maybe i could remember... =)
just that sunday...the crimination day for my cousins grandmother..my first visit to the funeral and it was the last...i didn't feel the sadness at the start..but when it came to "sending her off"...i looked at my cousins ..saw their look on their faces .. i could see their sadness..the pain they were feeling.. somehow..i felt it too...she paased away on that thursday 07-08-08...at 5pm...in the hospital...haizzz.
i shall dedicate this song to ppl who just lost someone.. =)

this is for my peoples who just lost somebody
your best friend, your baby your man or your lady
put your hand way up high
we will never say bye
no, no, no
mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers friends and cousins
this is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
lift your head to the sky
cause we will never say bye
as a child
there were them times
i didn't get it
but you kept me in line
i didn't know why you didn't show up
sometimes on sunday mornings
and i missed you
but i'm glad we talked through
all them grown folk things separation brings
you never let me know it
you never let it show
because you loved me
and obviously there's so much more left to say
if you were with me today face to face
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on
i wish i could talk to you for a while
miss you but i try not to cry as time goes by


and it's true that you've reached a better place
still i'd give the world to see your face
and be right here next to you
but it's like you're gone too soon
now the hardest thing to do is say
bye bye
you never got a chance to see how good i've done
and you never got to see me back at number one
i wish that you were here to celebrate together
i wish that we could spend the holidays together
i remember when you used to tuck me in at night
with the teddy bear you gave me that i held so tight
i thought you were so strong you'd make it through whatever
it's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on
i wish i could talk to you for a while
miss you but i try not to cry as time goes by
and it's true that you've reached a better place
still i'd give the world to see your face
and be right here next to you
but it's like you're gone too soon
now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye