The Climb

Every step I'm taking,
every move I make feels lost with no direction,
my faith is shaking, but i gotta keep trying,
gotta keep my head held high.

When the clock strikes midnight tonight, every night.
I will knowledge who I've been and who I am, and never lose sight.
Trying to be perfect, trying not to let you down.
I promise.

There's always gonna be another mountain,
I'm always gonna wanna make it move,
always gonna be an uphill battle,
and I'll try my best not to lose.

Its not just about me, never is and never was.
Its not about how fast I'll get there,
Its not about what's waiting on the other side,
Its about everyone else I care about, always is and always was.
The struggles I'm facing, the chances I'm taking,
sometimes might knock me down but no,
I'm not breaking.
I'm not gonna suffer,
We're not gonna suffer.

And its about what everyone follows through,



Its the climb.

Assurance

Take it as a positive thing.

Just make sure its a positive thing.

A positive thing that won't kill the world.

ok?

Inhale, exhale

I did Chi Kung this morning, how surprising for someone who would sleep in at that time.
They focus entirely on your breathing and movement of your body, just not how dogs do it.

Deep breath in,
Relaxing breath out.
Don't tense your muscles.
Don't breathe like a dog, you'll die fast like them.
Breathe like turtles, that's why they can live for centuries.
Except for turtles that die early on their way to sea, sigh.

Cold and comfortable.
Sunday morning, I think I like mornings.

Sweet

Okay, I wanna put this in a simple sentence.
I can't wait for certain occasions to end, like school projects and finals.
While waiting, lets have fun shall we?

Take it all in and feel it burn, jason.

Abracadabra

This here is Yeow Chong from Singapore.
When I was there for that leadership camp, he taught me allot of things.
He showed me some of his awesome magic tricks, and even taught me one.
Apart from amusing allot of us there, he was probably the one that keeps on reminding me that
I'm from Malaysia, in example :

"Jason! do you have facebook?"

"of course."

"Okay great, now we have links to Malaysia!"

Or even I hope he was being sarcastic when he told me not to share what I learned there.

"Hey! you kinda mastered that magic trick already."

"Yeapp.. *does it one more time*"

"Fast learner huh?
Remember not to reveal the secret to all your Malaysian friends okay!"

"Sure."

and I kept that promise until now.
Simply because I have forgotten about it.
Now that I remember..
I am here in Malaysia to share your talent, Yeow Chong!

Within Sight

Don't have to be a murderer for yourself,

don't have to be in control of the situation,

don't have to be pleading a deed looking so ugly,

don't have to be the one desperately solving the equation,

don't have to crave when you don't know what you're doing..

and you're not sure whether you know what you're doing, when actually you do.

Which makes everything so very simple, you plan the future like its yours, you put icing on the cake like its your birthday, you smile, laugh, think wisely and walk away like it doesn't matter to you anymore. Simply because your eyes don't deserve receiving sights that you don't find the good life in, your ears don't deserve to be treated like the leader of an army with your mind as their enemy. Its the other way round, you see.

All I wanna say and all I wanna do,

is believe the good in what I found,

and stand my ground.

Butterfly Fly Away

Somethings always happen in the sky.

Like just now, there wasn't much clouds.
I felt so open and free, my mind, that is.
But also felt like a prisoner in jail, peeking out through solid bars.

I only wished I could get out of the car without thinking anymore.
Then I'll jump high up into the open air, above everything below me.
Spread my arms wide and fly away, then I'll rest on the tallest point on earth.
And stay there as long as I want, just to enjoy that beautiful sight.

Just like a butterfly.

But I'm just a human, a boy.
A boy that can imagine.
Imagine like everyone else.

An Advice Forever

Its as if he was walking on dark roads himself,
making mistakes after mistakes and its something he thinks life offers to people.
For someone as wise as him, he wouldn't take those mistakes as a regret,
but a lesson for himself, an idea for the life he lived,
and a priceless advice for all of us.


If I were to remember how did he go,
its probably written in these few words he left in his wallet,
words he left behind.

"One pleasant diversion may lead to another.
Forgive and forget.
What's done is done,
and no amount of anger or bitterness can change things now."
-My late grandfather

Behind My Wall

Trains in the sky,
are travelling through fragments of time,
they're taking me to parts of my mind,
that no one can find.

Aging

Life would be infinitely much more amazing,
if we were born at the age of eighty..

and gradually approach eighteen.
So scared of getting old, I'm only good at being young.

And this is me speaking:
When I was younger..
I always wanted to grow old,
I always wanted to be big and tall,
I always wanted to learn more,
I always wanted to run faster,
I always wanted to jump higher,

I never regretted that interesting thought.

On My Own

Who would know what we're really feeling, when you don't?

I figured to have the ability to actually maximize the picture within your own mind.

Your mind is just too hard and sometimes.. too easy, too good to be true.

Reality is, reality is too good to be true even when you think you're used to it.

When you think you're used to that situation,

you probably won't even have time to go forth and embrace that extreme moment.

That extreme moment where you expect it to really last just for a while.

Just for you to grab a mirror and look at what you're experiencing.

But you simply have no time for all that, you fall into a shallow coloured realm and forgot.

Forgotten where you were, and what you're doing.

Only eyes that're not yours can see it.. no, only eyes that're not there, eyes from another view.

When those two angles meet, the victim and the observer, they see what's from there.

The only way you'd remember whatever had happened..

is when you lie in bed tonight, and you think what have you done.

By then, you're the observer for yourself, aren't you?

Desired

And when it rains,
You always find an escape,
Just running away.. from all of the ones who love you.. from everything.

You made yourself a bed at the bottom,
and you'll sleep till May,
you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore.

Routine

Don't forget to brush your teeth.

Patience

The world around us is ever swirling, ever changing.

Why would we want to jump into a swimming pool

that sometimes reaches extreme heat and extreme coldness

when we could simply enjoy the peace basking in a deck chair?

We are all nice people living in a sometimes confusing world.

Be kind to people who are unkind to you.

don't let unkindness spread like a disease,

the vaccine's in our hands,

inject yourself with it.

Reflect and relax,

jason.

Never Back Down

I am once again.. motivated.

Free Fallin'

Its a Sunday morning.

where I've put down a piece of my tear when I woke up today.

Just like how much I know about myself that I despise and love.

I wanna remember what they're worth,

I wanna glide down over Mulholland,

wanna write her name in the sky,

I wanna free fall out into nothin',

Oh i'm gonna leave this world for a while.

Just like before, forever, and always.

Reserve The Best

I could use a dream, or a genie, or a wish..
to have a reason less simpler than this.
And all the pandemonium and all the crimes,
There comes a moment when they fade right into your own head.

I read the newspapers everyday,
all the madness and issues makes me wonder,
wonder about the world outside as I start to picture myself in those situations,
I picture myself in almost everywhere just to understand what its like,
just to know what are they thinking,
and it all comes down to this:

Everything is human nature,
it only depends on how you live it and deal with it.
And oh boy, some people really don't know how to live a life.

They deserve better.

Smokers, deserve better.
Drug addicts, deserve better.
Kidnappers, deserve better.
Murderers, deserve better.
Robbers, deserve better.


Their mind deserves a better content than a negative thought.

Genius

"Two things are infinite:

the universe and human stupidity;

and I'm not sure about the universe." -Albert Einstein

A War

Is there something or someone that seems to be stuck in your head forever?

Everything, everyone.
Its just a matter of time that I'll lose and win.
Like a war, they lose lives, and win respect.
Like me, I lose everything and everyone, all I win is memories.

Little

Storyteller

He tore all the leaves in the world, hoping to find a second step.
He steps forward to stare into deep beauty from a mountain.
He sees dim rays of orange and blue,

Transient beauty, lost in a delusional moment.

Rain drops on the cold grass and between his toes,
It was cold, and he could almost hear the wind.
But he could never be certain - maybe it was the spiralling motion of the flakes,
drifting away into the darkness, convincing him that sound was present as more than a ghost of the thoughts.
Maybe sound was an illusion, and all there was... was silence.

He said to himself with ease:
"If I could be the only one here forever,
I would be dreaming,
I can't bring the world here,
I can't bring the place to the world,
I can only bring a story of this place to the world."

Revision

Guess what?

I went through my posts from the past and figured this way of observing myself.

In a way to know how much I've changed by answering the same questions.

And I was amazed by my answers one year ago and now.

What is your current mood?
Then: Confused, tempted.

Now: Packed with thoughts.

How many siblings do you have?
Then: *shows a peace sign*

Now: Still two.

Where do you wish you were right now?
Then: Singapore.

*My wish came true!*

Now: Thailand, once again.

Have a crazy side?
Then: Every second in class, definitely.

Now: Sometimes. :D

Something you do a lot?
Then: Slack!I think.

Now: Lay back, relax and enjoy the music.

What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Then: My eyes right here that can't find anyone, yet? :)

Now: My babies.

When was the last time you cried?
Then: I was being sarcastic and dramatic, hee.

Now: While I was reading Dear John.

What is your favorite song?
Then: The Script - Breakeven.

Now: Tokio Hotel - Zoom Into Me.

Who do you trust right now?
Then: Jasonkwy.blogspot.com.

Now: My senses.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Then: I'm topless now, its too hot here. :DD

Now: Still topless.

Have you kissed someone in the past week?
Then: My guitar.

Now: My music.

Describe your life in one word?
Then: Wave.

Now: Happening.

Who are you thinking of right now?
Then: Megan Fox :PP

Now: Polka dots.

What should you be doing right now?
Then: Jogging. Whoops!

Now: Decide my plans for tomorrow.

What are you listening to?
Then: If Today Was Your Last Day.

Now: The buzzing fan next to my face.

Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Then: I don't accept unnecessary noises.

Now: Mom, asking me to do some chores.

Do you act differently around the person you like?
Then and now: I act slightly different to everyone :D

Are you happy with life right now?
Then and now: Partly.

Are you currently jealous?
Then: Of people who owns a DSLR.

Now: Nope. =)

What were you doing on saturday night?
Then: Having a great time with them.

Now: World stage. 8)

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Then: I was young and stupid, least i know, now. :)

Now: No, not really.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Then: Whats the point?

Now: Don't know.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
Then: 12am, was out camwhoring/having dinner with them. :)

Now: Didn't check the time while I adjusted myself into dreamland.

How much do you think you've changed after finishing this?

Allot, that I'm fascinated. :)

Longing

I miss the little dude. =)

Beneficial

Instead of looking like a no one..

Instead of sitting,

Instead of waiting,

Instead of watching,

Instead of sitting there waiting for something to happen while watching helplessly,

I took my feet off the ground,
marched forward and said to myself:

"I have an idea"

and said to everyone else:

"Don't all of you realize how pathetic we look,
if we have that slightest feeling of hate?"

as I end my little speech with a smile.

To Infinity

To walk the waters without worry,
To do it with pride and glory,
To an end of misery.

Yes.. we can.
:)

Decison

The Universe likes speed.
Don't delay. Don't second guess. Don't doubt.
When the opportunity is there,
When the impulse is there,
When the intuitive nudge from within is there,

Decide.

That's your job. And that's all you have to do.

Energy

These kids..

are so cool and unique.

amusing and entertaining.





Yeah, I had fun working with them. =)