Meme

I admire Weishya.

Weishya is soon to be shorter than me.

If I were alone in a room with Weishya, I would be studying while she tutors me X)

I think Weishya should never forget me and I will do the same. haha

Weishya needs a partner.

I want to be like Weishya .except being in the ladies world =D.

The Blackhole

WHY?

a word stress should describe me right now..is there a better way to end this quick?. is there another path where i can be free again?..

oh yes Jason,there is.. go through it !!!

meeting yesterday was suppose to gave me a relief.. but heck, now theres more "weight" on my shoulders.. i strangely salute those september committees for surviving.. and i wasn't expecting 5 humans to create fun for around 20 people every week.. but yeah, things will never go the way you always want.. based on the schedule for this October.. it made my name as though i'm superman.. but somehow i'm still not regretting for joining this.. maybe i will, hopefully not. joining this was the first thing on my mind, and i'll try MY BEST to prevent it from being a nightmare..
my duty first week: ice breaking.. well i do have an idea but it will DEFINITELY need a longer time to finish. screw that idea. i remembered when they ask me what do i want to contribute.. and i said i want to share my ideas. and look at silly me.
and yes, this is not the only thing thats giving me the shivers. my studies are one of them problems... my desk are full of books..i'm desprately finding my mood to study and clean my study desk.
owh wow. look on the bright side.. i'm going to Port Dickson tomorow. whee. happy me. NOT!!.. these worries won't be gone easily untill i've figured out a creative way.
JASON KUAN IS YET TO BE DOOMED UNLESS. . .he goes through this with effort and most probably LUCK..

Seeking For The Best

desprate time calls for desprate measures.. i'm still in deep pressure. of course.. nagging about this wont do any good.. just have to find a way in. and there'll be slight glance of light that will show me the way out.. hmm i'm not sure whether what the hell am i talking.. just hope that this shall end soon.. as soon as possible..

its the start of a yet-soon-to-be-suffering-after-this-holiday!!.. woo-hoo!!. will be playing football as usual tomorow.. going to Port Dickson on tuesday.. and events are soon to be coming up....

i guess?

yeap.. today was another 3 hour schooling day.. which is also the last day where school starts at 12.30 and ends at 5.30 ...once again

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!.. haha

there won't be any TQ session this sunday.. so yeah.. there'll be more time to plan for the following week.. where i'll be doing ice breaking and actually have no idea about it.. sigh.. i finnaly realize the work of the committees.in need of effort and willingness to do it.. gotta train on it . i'm lacking of those..

High Pressure

know the meaning....pressure. but i guess you wont feel it.....pressure.do you? i'm at the starting line of pressure and its like a marathon..the time i end my "marathon" is after EXAMS!!.. it has just been stupidly postponed to 30TH of October ...

good news: i'll have more time to study and have SOME fun during my birthday

bad news: when exams over..it'll be the summer holidays which means no time to have fun in school..and on 2nd November.. it'll be my session which is a hymm singing which is in the middle of my exam week..need a sub !!!! e-mail sent to TQG committees..gotta study.. sorry guys.

its once again an awkward Raya holidays .. where the exams are closing in and a whole week of non-fun holidays has just started... holidays should be fun .. rite?? not for me.. final-year-exam for my tuition is next saturday/sunday.. much to study for my final-year-examinations... and its October.. good and bad news written.. and yeah.. its our turn..TQG committee for October to plan.. logistics is me myself.. which i have no experience in...and on 26TH OCTOBER which is CARMEN'S BIRTHDAY.. i'll be the main coordinator and having to know that i have no idea how to "coordinate" it... spent my past 30 minutes e-mailing.. for i am a retard... understand my sole-called pressure?? homeworks as high as a mountain...i am yet to be doomed.. my birthday is on 16th of October .. which is on the second last day of my sister having PMR examination...unlucky me... she can have fun before i do...
last Sunday was yet another great day with my pals.. X)..adding on weishya,jinhwa and jocelyn.. hehe.. my third time out with justin and daniel.. my second time out with carmen, yan ming and yeh vin...haha. walking around in pyramid.. justin showing me his sole-called hot girls which are NOT!!!.. saw some weird stuff.. went to the arcade again.. justin actually beat me again.. the score now is 1-2.. haha. AND NOT KNOWING THAT I HAVE A MATHS TEST AT NIGHT!!.. i could've studied the whole day and scored an A. but yeah.. it was worth it.. got a bad B .. haha .i would've failed if not for my sister which we rushed home and tutor me for 30 minutes which helped only a little.. =X.. haha..
RIGHT AFTER MY EXAMS...which is on 7th of November. my class organised a trip to SUNWAY LAGOON...haha . the first thing they worried was.." what to wear"..i have nothing to worry about.. just a swimming trunk,3-quarter surf pants and topless will be my choice of outfits.. haha...wonder what those "gay" people are gonna wear.. haha sorry but i just can't help some people in my class that darkens my days in school.. haha.

OFF TO STUDY...

the best of both worlds

back again.. friday.. schooling days are over.. for the next 48 hours.. sigh. appretiate this chance while i can.. of course.. IF i'm not able to blog tomorow.. i won't be able to keep you entertain at my blog for the next seven days but yeah.. better than nothing.. school was no good .. 3 hours?? its like attending a tuition session just that the teachers are way more boring ..long story short..it was then after school.. where i decided to go home.. shower and watch TV.. plans changed when i reached home.. wasn't in the mood to do so and quickly change wore SLIPPERS.. and went to the nearby park in my neighbourhood.. saw lisa and dylan having love there.. didn't bother so continued walking..reached the basketball court and played some.. havent knowing that this is my first time stepping on the small court this year.. damn!!..but i got used to it and found my flow.. BTW i also havent been touching(playing) basketball for the past three months.. the damn(gay) coach wasn't interested in my skills.. so i quited. i don't like it when those guys says that i stopped playing basketball and started playing football.. its just such a disgrace.. damn it.. i'll show them.. next year i hope the gay coach quits and we got a new coach and a new image shall be made..gonna play football tomorow.. bryan couldn't.. erm i mean DIDN'T want to come.. he texted me

bryan:" tomorow i can't come, i got tuition adi.

jason: " wat time is your tuition"

bryan:"8, oh no!!.. i just topped up 60 bucks and now left 19 only.. don't send me message , just for today"

jason:" dun try to lie.. i know you are. you've been coming every saturday and never been nagging about tuitions.. i'm not stupid bryan , not easy to fool me. X)"

and he really did..lazy to type the following messages.. hee. so hes not comin.. sigh..but he tried to lie..traitor!!.. haha.. no offense boy.. just joking..but he couldn't fool me.. i'm just too smart to be fooled.. hehe!!

on the way to perfection?

here i am.. yet another weekend. i mean yet another friday.. the only single day where i lay hands on the computer. the only day where i can have fun.. the only day where i can finnaly blog..based on carmen's blog.. i haven't been updating for 6 days.. shocking..i was expecting 7 days . heh.. first things first..something i have to blog about.. which was just(?) last weekend.. rocking saturday.. you can say its ONE of my best weekends.. went to play football that saturday morning and it was the night that SJBA celebrated the full moon.. thought of helping out decorating but i was exhausted due to the football playing.. i think i slept the whole afternoon. oh yeah. i did.. heh. peformances were great.. except the somehow-kinda-gay-and-his-sometimes-funny-jokes-which-only-makes-children-laugh CLOWN!!.. sandwich boards which i eventually wore.. haha.

wiring names made by carmen..thank you!! haha. compared to my brother and sisters one. mine the nicest..hee X). and the saga of darren shan continued..which i expected to. two books . a birhtday present from justin lee.. now i have to think of something to give him for his next birthday. haha!.. guess what i actually finished reading both the books just yesterday night.. too excited wanting to know what happened.. duhh.. now that i've finished book 1 until book 6 (each book story containing around 200 pages.. i'm ready for book 7 to 9 .. the front page of the book may seem scary but its not.. haha.. that when i first thought when i got the first book from justin..hee ..and the night was over.. sunday was on its way.. the day started of when i went to TQ session LATE again.. i'm gonna have to keep up i guess.. zzz.. i don't like the part where all TQ committees meet and each have to share what they think of todays session which i.. normally have nothing to share..

sunday kicked off the second half when i went to summit with Justin,Carmen,Venice,Daniel,YanMing,Peihao and YehVin. met at macdonalds(restaurant of my choice after going in circles deciding where to eat -.- ) arcade was the first choice venue after having our lunch.. lost to justin this time at some game.. not the end justin.. its best out of three. scores still 1-1. heh.. rolled some drums and raced cars.

the time came when we decided to watch a movie..only few of us were present for it.. which was me, Justin, Venice, .. where the usual stuff happened like "I'm Not Stupid 2" this time its just more.. i think i cried when i was watching that movie.. but somehow.. this movie brought the house down by touching the hearts of many.. a poor old mother.. three beloved sons.. and just because of money..not gonna tell much about it now... watch it and make sure you have tissues by your side.. not for me.. i was the abnormal one.. the sad part came and mostly(?) everyone cried.. on my left. Carmen..sobbing.. on my right.. Justin.. CRYING. haha!!. on my front.. Yan Ming.. shedding tears.. behind me.. thank god no one was sitting there...or i'll be hidding my head cause i wasn't in the mood to cry...

the take over, the breaks over

my breaks are over!! i have to study.. that includes physically and mentally.. but i know.. surely know. that this will all come to an end.. cause nothing lasts forever.. uh-huh.. this would be the best time to use those three magical words.. about less than one month to go till dooms day .. its just funny that i'm not in the mood for exams.. no its not that i don't want to study.. i'm just ... hmm... too confident??.. who knows?. god knows.. school today is like nothing happened the whole afternoon.. ya.. just three hours of schooling is like going to tuition juat that the teachers are not fully aware.. so yeah. obviously i went to school just to meet my friends.. yikez!!.. sounds gay.. never mind.. but i did made plans with some of them... gonna play football tomorow at 7.30, court 2..hope rishen calls his friends too or we'll be bored playing with the same dudes.. but its fun.. and i'll try to break the post or bend it higher so that i can score when that special shot comes by again...mind my links.. i'm just lazy to link people right now.. whenever i change my layout i can't copy and paste my links.. how stupid of me...

I CAN?? CAN I?? SHOULD I?? MAY I??

i just need...

complete concentration.. life is driving me crazy

yeah..i figured out my weekly routine.. i can only touch the net during weekends.. which means i will only blog on weekends.. yeap.. exams are just around the corner.. i'm suprisingly started studying.. but yeah.. not fully concentrating on it.. just studying for the sake of getting better results then my previous test.. yeap. it was horrible..i started to study just 2 weeks before exams for the mid-term.. despite observing my not-so-good results.. i've decided that i have to study harder...at the moment.. play hard to.. ahaha!!!.. last saturday was the finals of the basketball competition.. don't know why but there is a place for 5th.. and yeah.. we were told to play for it.. but i had to get the best of both worlds.. i made plans with my football pals as well... but tears of joy.. we were gonna play at the same place..haha..i meant at court 2.. where theres a futsal court and a basketball court beside it.. i didn't know wat to wear though.. so i just wore a basketball pants and a football top.. and i brought a basketball jersy.. heh. our game was after the semifinals...so played hard we did.. i scored the first ball with a suprising 3-pointer.. hehe.. then didn't get the chance to score later.. without any notice.. we were playing a full court press.. they had a hard time passing the ball out.. and they seriously did.. giving us about a few balls to score... we thaught we were losing at the start.. but OMG.. we were leading like.. allot!!.. and it was in adcance a 4 on 5.. haha.. shyen played the first half and didn't touch the ball.. i think.. sarina played the second.. and she could've touched the ball ... HAHA!!.. but yeah... we still won.. a crushing 24-4... awesome huh?!?!..played football again after that...i rang the upper post with a super shot!!.. which reminds me of interclass 5 on 5 where i took a volley from before the half court line .. thingking it was going for a goal.. it hit the upper post.. damn!!.. if the post was a few inch higher.. my best two shots.. haha.. then saturday was over as i was tired the whole afternoon.. sunday was yet another story.. skipped TQG. haha sorry.. went to the club that morning... played basketball and check out this snapshot!!

HAH!!.. SHAWTY!!

cool huh??..i edited it.. hehe played golf after that.. yeap..i'm starting to love it.. furthest i hit was about more than 100m.. good enough for a starter like me... hehe. i guess.. then went swimming ..schools boring.. oh ya.. mind my layout.. i have to time for it now...just toooooo busy hah.. i finnaly cut my freaking long hair!!.. haha.. no.. teacher didn't complain . i'm just sick of it.. shorter hair is much better... hehe wanna see it??.. no pics.. sorry..

I'M OUT!!

shadows fill an empty heart

as love is fading

from all the things that we are

but are not saying

can we see beyond the scars

and make it to the dawn?

change the colours of the sky

and open up to

the ways you made me feel alive

are the ways i loved you

from all the things that never died

to make it through the night

and love will find you

what about now?

what about today?

what if you're making me

more than i was meant to be?

what if our love

never went away?

what if its lost behind

words we can never find?

baby before its too late

what about now?

the sun is breaking in your eyes

to start a new day

this broken heart can still survive

with a touch of your grace

shadows fade into the light

i am by your side

when love will find you

now that we're here

now that we've come this far

just hold on

theres nothing to fear

for i am right beside you

for all my life

what about now?

on the edge

Do you ever feel like breakin down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong here
AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS YOU???
Do you ever wanna run away ?
Do you LOCK YOURSELF IN YOUR ROOM?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears ya SCREAMIN!!!

yes you will know what it's like
When nothin' feels alright
You would know what it's like
To be like me

To be HURT
To feel LOST
To be LEFT OUT IN THE DARK
To be KICKED when your DOWN
feel like you've been PUSHED AROUND
To be on the edge of breakin' down
With no one there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
WELCOME TO MY LIFE!!!

Do you wanna be somebody else
Are you sick of feeling so left out
Are you desperate to find somethin' more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate(not really)
Are you sick of everyone around you(some of them)
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleedin'

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there

and you'll never know when the things that are just in front of you are the things you need to live untill they're gone

OMG!!..i was actually stupid.. a fool!!..haha

but all thanks to crystal chow!!..weee!!..THANK YOU!!

i found the key yo my retarded blog..and it was actually not one.. wakaka!!!.. woo-hoo!!.. yeah man!!

i'm on the edge but i'm coming back to the top babeh!

no way!!.. i'm not gonna share with you how syupid i was.. only crystal knows!!.. wakaka.. woo-hoo!!.. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my taste for this blog has just reach the boiling point man!!..

TILL THE NEXT POST PEOPLE!!!

I'M OUT!!! TO THE MOUTH WATERING WORLD OF WONDERS!!!

breaks over

i'm back to blogging.. theres only one simple reason why i'm having this chance to do so... its da weekend!! woo-hoo!! yeah!!....no..i'm still upset. haizzz.. homeworks are pilling up again.. but hey.. i'm trying my best to finish those stressing stuff.. damn it!!.. wats wrong with my freaking blog?!?!..i can't change the font or the text size or the colour.. sheesh!!...retard freak!!...
but i manage to change my blog skin.. haha. after sooo long of looking for one.. but this isn't good enough.. don't worry.. i'll find one that suits my bloggie perfectly.. aiks. heh..
OMG!!!!i forgot to copy and paste my chatbox and links!!!.. shit shit shit!!..i hate myself!!!.. aaaahhhhhH!H!!!!
i'm devastated!!.. my blogs doomed!!..its cruched by me!!!.. nnnooooO!!!.. no.. i can't let this happen.. i have to change this luck from happening.. hais...
i'm sick and tired.and somehow for once i don't know why.. maybe i do know.. just that i can't see it..

A ROSE FOR YOU...

purify me!

its raining outside...aiks. the sky is crying. blog's are retards..i don't think i can describe the colour of my words now...sheesh i would've been blogging earlier if the computer wasn't in the study room where my 2 other siblings were studying .. and now they're out.. haha. so i can come in and blog. eeks..i'm bored. someone kill it!!.. someone heal it!!..
its a holiday..i suppose that i should be happy but not much.. thought of playing football this morning with my pals..texted thana..no reply.. thinking that hes still suffering from that stomach disease..
GET WELL SOON BOY!!!
damn it..tomorows schooling again.. nope..haven't even touch my homeworks yet.. but look at the bright side..theres no tuition tonight!!. hurray!!!.. hehe. but yeah..not enjoying whether there is or there isn't any tuition.. haizz.. i'm hoping for the best things to happen now.. eventhough it comes.. it won't be there forever..
oh yes!!..my cousin has e-mailed me those pictures.. joys.. no. not much joys.. i look like a complete retard in them pics.. so i'll just post one of them.. yikezz.i still look like one on this one.. haizz..