Inspiration

I found this video on John Mayer's blog.

I don't know how he got the inspiration and idea to do that, but if he tried 20 or 30 times to break plywood with his head, he did it(i think?). As much as I am aware of this, this just gave me a reason to myself to achieve something, anything. I admire your effort, dude. :)

Sime Darby LPGA Malaysia 2010

Fresh, clean and calm.
The professional game of golf by ladies. :)

You know what I like about golf?

The atmosphere around you when you're there,
the strength and patience you got in you,
the skills you need to play,
and the distance,
is simply.. satisfying.

I Dare You To Move

For Once Of A World

Slowing down, is not exactly asking you to hold back what you're doing, its simply a request for a little time to think, for yourself and hopefully, others too. When the song goes crazy, when the screaming begins, when the fists start to fly, when you just want to crumple and think it'll help, when everything around you, has gone upside down. What are you to do?

To think, swiftly and silently, is to be wise.

I want to think about this, and when I am thinking about this, I want to know, and when I am on my way to knowing, I should make a move, or don't move at all. Think about how much my mind can take, how much I can take before I feel like I need a rest. But I know, I can take more than I am capable of.

I am picturing a world now.

My decisions proves my actions.

My thoughts expose effortless effort.

The world is supposed to be far better than this.

This is all balanced, before I unbalance it, for the sake of progress.

Waiting For The End

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new,

holding onto what I haven't got..

This is not the end this is not the beginning,

just a voice like a riot,

rocking every revision,

but you listen to the tone,

the violet rhythm,

Though the words sound steady,

something's empty within 'em.

~Waiting For The End by Linkin Park.

Forgive me, I'll be back.

Sweet

Orange Jasmine

雨下整夜 我的愛溢出就像雨水 ,
Rain falls the whole night, my love overflows just like rainwater,

院子落葉 跟我的思念厚厚一疊,

The fallen leaves in the yard, thickly overlaps with my lingering thoughts,

幾句是非 也無法將我的熱情冷卻,

A few words of dispute, can never cool my warmth,

妳出現在我詩的每一頁.

You appear in every page of my poems.

When I was younger, very much younger, I loved Jay Chou, like the first song I ever heard from him(Orange Jasmine), I was obsessed. Maybe it was the very first time I understood music, and it was wonderful, real beautiful music you could go on all day listening to, and singing with it, which I know I did, I remember it like it happened yesterday, and I'd memorise the lyrics without giving a damn of what it means.

I now remember how it was like to be me, going all fascinated and imagining myself in the music, it all seems so magical now. For this period of time, I'll be going through every song I used to love by Jay Chou, and I still do love it, and I really missed it.

I compare, myself now and then, how much I've changed, I feel ashamed, and proud at the same time. But now, music helped me find myself again, and you'd just want to throw away what you are today, lived back how you were before, and make the fullest out of it, because you know, that you can make the best out of it today than yesterday, and it makes you feel all warm and lovely inside. This is awesome.

Plan Ahead

Never have I thought I could feel so unsatisfied with what I do, to put it in some other simpler way, I'd like to improve myself, and I don't believe I can do this in such a short period of time, no matter what happens, in time, I will be better than this. My finals is starting in less than 3 days from now, and I'm convincing myself not to be those nervous cold-sweating person but instead I want to be this calm and focused student and do whatever I can until it is over, until i fill up my test papers with answers I feel most confident in.

And.. when I'm done with those papers, I have this determined plan that never will I bother of where the grade of my result will be at but instead where I will grow, and I'd want to start growing as soon as possible. Hence, with the advice from my accounts teacher, I have decided to spend my 6 weeks of holidays right after my finals to really, and thoroughly complete whatever I've yet to be done with.

YES, I am going to study peacefully, without the worry of anything coming too soon, and deliberately I will finish my syllabus of form 4 before I step into the syllabus of form 5, before it all ends, I'm going to save myself, I'll be brave, I'll be strong, I'll be flexible, I'll be educated.

Flex

"He said "Follow me, I know what I'm doing."

and I followed him since he knows what he was doing.

and what happened from then on was tragedy.

and the punishment was hard on us.

He told me he knew what he was doing, he didn't tell me he was stupid.

I couldn't believe it, for all the times I lay my trust on him.

I'm being too nice, or too naive, I can't, no more."

The story of Jack and Fool that never existed

and told by this wild imagination I imagined.

Ready to step on myself, all set for a thrill, here we go.

Whispers

Sometimes, I regret my speech.

But never my silence.

Steam

Stand up beside the fireplace,
take that look from off your face,
you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out.

Fearless

In The End

This is the time where you go about your day, never thinking what on earth are you doing here, how senseless we humans can be such that you never bother to figure out why is this life, we call it life since it all started, so occupied with our emotions and feelings. You know what I think? I think all of us live inside this little box of our own, different boxes alike.

Now, lets think outside the box.

You see, God knows where we came from, wait, we don't even know if Gods exists, we just believe and wherever we came from, its so natural, I've been thinking of life outside of this planet or even wider, outside our imaginations and what we have ever saw. All we can do is just believe, that's us, can convince ourselves that this is all there is. The past, we have made so many different stories that I don't understand, if one generation passes down to another, and whatever happened that brings everything here today, why are there so many different stories?

...that's right, we lie, and we believe.

We believe, simply because we don't have any other source to make our own ground, to have the knowledge where we can rely on, so we buy whatever have been said. Which brings us down to a deceiving situation, and again, we convince ourselves that its true, whatever have been exposed, is worthy of our trust, how sad. I, Jason, just hope each and everyone, I just wonder, I just think, I just imagine, that if we can live without the existence of money, I swear that this earth, the places, where you are, will be so different in a way where no negative tragedies, no unpleasant emotions, no stupid feelings, no lies.

...all just for this life.

But you know what? That's just impossible, considering how long mankind has existed, how much we've changed from just naked primates, to whatever we are today. We can only continue stepping up, and looking forward.

In the end, it doesn't even matter.

Listed

Here are some books I would be pleased to read,
when I feel drenched in formal emotions. :)

Convincing

I got it.. i got it.
I know I got it.
I know it.. i know it.

Wrong

Beating

Always remember that the heart is the strongest muscle in the body.

Then you'll never die.

Its so easy when you know it.