The Melody Changes

Do you remember that song, "This Could Be the Start of Something Big?"
It was a fast. upbeat tune, usually sung by a guy in a tuxedo in front of a big band.
It went like this :



You're walkin' along the street, or you're at a party,
Or else you're alone and then you suddenly dig,
You're lookin' in someone's eyes, you suddenly realize
That this could be the start of something big..

"Oooh, that one's a swinger~"

Broken Smile

A smile, I feel.. is like a health bar.. in an adventure killing game.
You'll find them at every secret corner, and you're healthier..
Enemies, attack you.. problems face you,
you cry, you're sick, you're dying.


As for me,
I'm facing this army of darkness,
I don't see much smiles, its getting harder to find them..
I don't think a smile is enough anymore.
All we can do is pray, pray hard.



Kill me, kill me and get it over with.

This Is Hard

I see a particular reason for things, weird things.

When there is actually more to that, and its just how I'm looking at it.

I'm looking at it from a bright-side now, no, dark-side(?)

I'm confused, like everyone else,

I'm always wondering, like everyone else,

I'm fragile, like everyone else,

I'm solid, like everyone else,

I'm not, like everyone else.

I'm using "everyone else", are you included?

See-saw

Ghosts tend to haunt you round and round,
People can scare you when they're consistency is like

Up

Down

UP

DOWN

UP
AND
DOWNNNN.


=)

Question Answered

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Tell me something that has inspired you the most to live your life.

I don't know.. I've been through allot, but i don't think its enough.. I like the fact that experience matures me, I want more.. and when Inspiration comes along, so does experience. Life would've be more of negative periods if not for some reason. What has inspired me?

Wise people and great books.

Thanks for asking, whoever you are. =)

Change

The smell of cigar still floats in the air, a wise man's.

Rain still pouring, delivering pleasant atmosphere.

Its today, its different..

Its the month, its different..

Its the year, truly different..

I don't know the end result, I'm worried.

No More Emotions

Today,

maybe I appeared a little too crashing.

I don't know,

Maybe i did something, something i didn't realise,

Could be wrong, could be right,

The ringings of solid voices is all around,

I feel, i feel ...

like an outcast.

Played The Game

A brief candle; both ends burning

An endless mile; a bus wheel turning

A friend to share the lonesome times

A handshake and a sip of wine

So say it loud and let it ring

We are all a part of everything

The future, present and the past

Fly on proud bird

You're free at last.

~Charlie Daniels

Its A Smile

Coiffio:

So then we are either very, very, very, very, very much in danger,

or very, very, very, very, very much... safe.

Mr. VV

We'll make your last week in 4 Omega one to never forget.
I'll make your last week being in the same class with me one to never forget.
Prepare to create this history, make it a good one.

Museum! :D

The Way It Is

So we put forth that kind of attention in our lives -

to notice that whatever arises passes away ;

whatever condition of your mind or body -

whether it is a sensation of..

pleasure or pain, feeling or memory, sight, sound, smell, taste or touch, inside or outside

- it is just a condition.

Place a hand on my head and say,

"I did not finish reading this book. :)"

Forgive, Don't Forget

I won't blame you,
I won't get mad at you,

Because i know, your attitude i hate,
wouldn't last,

Because i know, what you did,
won't happen again,

Because i know, there was no intention in your soul.

That part of you, is impermanent.
Your mind and body, is impermanent.
Whatever we do now, is impermanent.
Everything, is impermanent.

I'm almost there...

Ego

I... am trying to put myself up for this challenge I expected to be something easy,if i had this effort on making it happen..

I tried to think the same for all occasions, but only to find that effort, wasn't enough..

I will try to lay a shock tone on every bone and nerve within me, and find a way through this unpredictable cycle,

I won't smile no more.. I'll play it hard, i'll play it smart, i'll try again.

A Decent Memory

Now, I'm having this obsession towards a certain matter.
Thana, showed me there.
I wanna bring you back to the 90's
Where music..
Like this, and this..
Blows cold and warm wind into your little loving heart.

I always see your face,
I know my happiness is only a kiss away,
And every hour here in the dark,
Every beat.. of my lonely heart,
Tells me, that I need to be with you,
Heaven oh heaven, what can I do?


I looked into her eyes, and now she's all I see..

Natural Selections

I turn down the volume,

to hear the voices in my head,
trying to speak out loud and clear,

I like those spirits of fume,
trapped right under my bed,
every night i rest, for the next day, its what i'll hear.

I don't need another costume,
to impress that redhead,
for what I'd need, was a little more... sincere.

I'm not gonna wait, I'll burn myself out..
Even if it means risking..
what we don't call freedom.

We're About To Write Forever

Its not everyday where you get to draw symbols and names or scribble all over your room's wall, looking at it everytime you step inside thinking.. this is what I like, this is the world behind my wall. I so happen to be stuck in Ee Shen's house that evening, as I explored his room.. his wall, with not much of drawing yet but craps like "JEN NING was here <3" and a few other grafitti writtings and drawings by himself which i was quite amazed. With pleasure, I made my mark too, on his wall of memory.. ;)




Its your turn, now.

Inhuman

A Twist So Fast

Someday, I play my guitar on almost every song i have on my playlist
From
the all american rejects
taylor swift
john mayer
boys like girls
muse
or whatsoever

This very messy playlist, I never bother to boost.
Hence, the dead and noisy approaches my ears,
I need something new, I don't get the new music, I want the new music.
I tend to calm the sparks within myself,
I sing too, my voice.. I'd feel sincere, sometimes.


Everyday, pull myself up and march towards the present and future seconds to come, i'd think too much of how this might result, I gamble, this oblivious that i was accused, proclaimed, very stupidly, misunderstanding, its over.. :)

Winds Of Changes

Cause we got, optimism.
and Vashan Pillai.
Something about his face, makes me wanna laugh. :D

The man with metaphors and symbolism in his stories.

"Yes, that's what I want see... a nice... big.... smile!"

"You can't change the direction of the wind,
but you can make yourself go there, with the wind."

“Having a positive mental attitude is asking how something can be done,

rather than saying it can't be done.”

“Enthusiasm is excitement with inspiration, motivation,

and a pinch of creativity.”

"But it was especially fun that day"

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enjoy.
:)

Miss This?

You know, when the situation in school isn't pretty much restricted..
like almost everday?

during free periods?

when the school is busy with upcoming events?

when you're in a class like 4 Omega?

when you're all pumped up?

and you simply can't resist left in the class without a teacher?

Get off your feet, and have some fun..

Well, what else can you do? ;)

We can get so used to this freedom that we sometimes know what we're really doing.. but you won't wanna spend your high-school days, dead and boring, are you?

"Like your fingers, its stronger when you make it a fist,
like us, its awesome when you have schoolmates like this."

Subject : Two little bro's
Reason : We just rock.






Kissable 8)

You don't wait,
you embrace..
=)

Pictures above taken by:
Shahid Rogers

Observe

Now when we're reflecting on things as they are, we're seeing, rather than interpreting through a veil of self-view.The big obstacle all of us have to face is this insidious belief in the I am - attachment to self-view. It's so ingrained in us that we're like fish in the water: water is so much a part of the fish's life that it doesn't notice it.The sensory world we've been swimming in since our birth is like that for us. If we don't take time to observe it for what it really is then we'll die without getting any wiser.


Weeeeeee!! :)

In My Head

Some dudes know all the right things to say.
When it comes down to it, it’s all just a game.
Instead of talking, maybe I can't demonstrate.
Get down to business and skip foreplay.



There's a device in my head,
that can interpret whatever is in there,
everything that I'm thinking of,
can be seen or heard, read..
I wish.

Yellow's Turn

I ate this banana and left the discarded banana aside..
An hour later I came back and realised the it had turned black, rotten..
Just within an hour?

The banana was bought a few days ago and it was still fine..


What does this suppose to mean?

No Promises

I don't know..
I think I have allot of catching up to do..


I think..
I need all the luck I can get..


I need..

Consistency!
ROAR!!

Alter Ego

If we relive the moments years ago when we were just kids..
Things we do were actually out of curiosity, perhaps.
But now, we're doing all sorts of things, to make a better life..
preparing for the future.. and what if
tomorrow never comes.. whats the point?
Why is this type of circle revolving around us?
In a matter of time, you'd stare at the mirror saying,
"This is it"
or rather childishly
"I'm gonna earn some respect"
This attitude explains the pushing of the question
Who are you trying to impress?
no one, someone.. someone's no one.




This doesn't rhyme..

Game On

Somethings, were just never meant to be, it relates.

No one, knows whats going on..

Unless you really have that life, that life where you convey a message

a message, saying :

"I don't react to a tragic happening any more. I took so many bad things as a kid and some people think I don't care about anything. It's just too hard for me to get emotional. I can't cry no more."
~Mike Tyson~

Which only makes sense to himself.. :]

I can't stand the lemon squeezed onto my wound,

I'm in a blue flunk, crestfallen, dejected, angry.

Of which matter.. I can tell.

That game just laid all sorts of war courage in our souls.

Maybe just most of us, but i'm not gonna be dispirited.

I hope something works out.

Somewhere...

I belong?

:)

If This Story Existed

You were crashed by the waves of unsatisfaction..

It was hell..

It was stupid..

It was ... !

Imagine going out on the road, attempting to rule the streets..

and failing, when it shouldn't have happened,

it couldn't have happened,

it wasn't supposed to happen,

the end result, is worth crying with a raging heart.

The first day, we set off...

we played.. we fight..

shaking every thoughts on our mind.. we were awakened by USJ13, breaking the ice roughly.. we won, 21-20.

Second game.. USJ8, we won, 34-11. There, we got through the group stage.

Have you ever heard of the situation, deja vu? Maybe not, this creepy nerve never seemed to get you all feeling punched up. 7th April, 5.15pm, it was raining cats and dogs.. Delayed (We fast forward) Rain stops (We fast forward) Humid, warm, and uneven (We fast forward)..... USJ4, quarterfinals, game on. The scoreline every minute, you'd stuck your head to watch it go..... no difference, not much of a difference, pressure. Rusty as we are, that type of atmosphere is one we rarely experience, it can kill you from the inside. (We fast forward) Forth Quarter, it was beginning, to set fire on your soul, excitement, false entertainment, No, it didn't happen.. our star-player, our playmaker, our best player.. our number 5, Loo Jen-ning, Fouled out! at the closing stages.. the final minutes of the game.. the part where we'd need someone like him most.. he was out of the game. We fight, we continue this fight, as best as we could.. 3 minutes.. 2 minutes.. the final minute. It was a neck to neck finish, no one would dare predict the result.. 30 seconds, we fight.. 20 seconds, we fight.. 10 seconds, we fight..

The score, was 24-24.. with 7 seconds left to play

Subang Utama has the ball..

plenty of hesitations..

no one dared to make a sound..

no one dared to make a move..

we could only.. watch it.

helpless.. so darn helpless.

Overtime~

everything was flying.. for that 5 minutes of overtime

like something awaits the loser, and the winner..

but which, to be ready for which?

They score, we score..

28-28

Free throw for them

he makes one out of two

Free throw again, for them

he makes one out of two, again.

28-30

the clock, ticking down

28-30

emotions, were spinning around

28-30

we try to make every rebound

10 seconds left

every second, counts.

4 seconds

28-30

3 seconds

we open the ball

2 seconds

we struggle

1 second

he threw the ball

..................

What Now?

Do you know, what it feels like..

Where every single little piece of bits of things you do, really counts?

And everything in front of your eyes..

feels like a blur image, happening.. its happening.

Then, you can't overlook the situation?

you can't control it,

its happening.. it really is.

Yea, have you been there?

Why This?

For all thats one, we come up with motions that we'd do..

If its right.. then we benefit

If its wrong.. why do this bull?

If its nothing,

Answer that fake, cracked smile....

Does.. It.. Matter?

Above All Sorts

The look on that face, signifying nothing.. nothing.. nothing, at all.

But we don't know, as we don't have the ability to know..

Unless, we have. (:

But some questions never fail to bother us

like..

Why.. why does that facial expression have to show such mystery?

Such that.. our mind would result hanging in the balance of a raised eyebrow

Such that.. its something we'd do, not to get ourselves that uneven spirit

Such that.. this aura probably lead you to face one of the most..

one of the most fuming challenges for your head~

Like a liar, looking for forgiveness..

perhaps sometimes, we speak of the truth..

where we haven't got the chance to really understand the truth,

just jerking it out, like we could..

we don't know, we act like we know.. its throbbing through everywhere.

Everywhere, everywhere, until everyone who.. who..

Who wouldn't sit down, and wonder..

While the sun would be shinning towards sensuality, beyond that.. could be jeopardy.

Cold Pressure

-When your science teacher smashed a frozen rose with a hammer,
did you warm the petals to bring them back to life?-

"Yeah, I tried."

The World Behind My Wall

Trains in the sky,

Are travelling, through fragments of time,

They're taking me to parts of my mind,

That no one else can find.

I'm ready to fall,

I'm ready to crawl,

On my knees to know it all,

I'm ready to heal,

I'm ready to feel,

Take me there.

Five People

"All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time."


You know, books like these can really make a change on that little matter, and how you see it. Unlike those some unwholesome thoughts that might kill you from the inside, flipping that few pages each day, you can bend it back. With the touch from the process of life to death, Mitch Albom did his magic again, impressively, about life after death, with "The Five People You Meet In Heaven". Exotically, his stories went even more over the border of imagination, injecting that heavenly feeling into you.


"And in that line now was a whiskered old man, with a linen cap and a crooked nose, who waited in a place called the Stardust Band Shell to share his part of the secret of heaven: that each affects the other and the other affects the next,
and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one."
~Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven~

...and i thank Jen Ning, again. :)