The future, my future

Most of us come to a point of our lives where we are bound to make a decision that decides whatever comes next. By whatever I mean everything.

Graduated from high school almost a year ago and I remember contemplating almost every day about what I'm about to do next. Because its where everyone starts running to very, very different pathways when all that was before were pretty much planned by others even before we were born. But now, we are left with the responsibility to acknowledge our purpose and destinations and decide on one. just. one.

The optimistic phrase of 'I would do anything' will not come in handy now, neither does 'I don't want to do anything'. We breathe, eat and sleep to live for tomorrow and tomorrow we must have a mission or all these breathing, eating and sleeping are meaningless. For all you know, those who do not have a mission will not survive. I'm talking in terms of life, we are considered dead if there is no mission. Because we live for ourselves, and doing nothing for ourselves should signify that we're not.. 'alive'.

One year has passed since I took on this decisive journey and I believe it is my turn to decide on my mission. Architecture.

No matter how many negative reviews I've heard from various sources, including my own father, I'd have the tendency to look around for more options and it filters back to the profession, Architecture. I had no solid reasoning for my choice back then, but after countless considerations and thoughts put into my future, I don't know if there is any other course that would suit me better. Honestly, I had no idea what I preferred.

BUT

I realise all these reviews I heard were not of my worries because the problems proposed were not any sort of restriction, but irritation and fear. I could be wrong, but to me it is just unethical for one to complain about bringing fine art in the form of buildings and thinking that not enough was given in return when these architects or future architects have offered  or would offer a solid masterpiece in their own name. If I were capable of doing so, I'd be proud, really proud that I was given the chance to design a home, facility or even an  inspiration for the people. Money should not be a case of concern as I feel that it only provides a sense of security, instead of a main priority. I could be a hypocrite but this is what I wish to achieve, this attitude I want to nurture and live as a career. Constantly putting myself in a dilemma will only kill me more, because I am oblivious if there are any better options for me and so far, it should be this one. I have to decide, and this should be my mission.