the take over, the breaks over

my breaks are over!! i have to study.. that includes physically and mentally.. but i know.. surely know. that this will all come to an end.. cause nothing lasts forever.. uh-huh.. this would be the best time to use those three magical words.. about less than one month to go till dooms day .. its just funny that i'm not in the mood for exams.. no its not that i don't want to study.. i'm just ... hmm... too confident??.. who knows?. god knows.. school today is like nothing happened the whole afternoon.. ya.. just three hours of schooling is like going to tuition juat that the teachers are not fully aware.. so yeah. obviously i went to school just to meet my friends.. yikez!!.. sounds gay.. never mind.. but i did made plans with some of them... gonna play football tomorow at 7.30, court 2..hope rishen calls his friends too or we'll be bored playing with the same dudes.. but its fun.. and i'll try to break the post or bend it higher so that i can score when that special shot comes by again...mind my links.. i'm just lazy to link people right now.. whenever i change my layout i can't copy and paste my links.. how stupid of me...

I CAN?? CAN I?? SHOULD I?? MAY I??

i just need...

complete concentration.. life is driving me crazy

yeah..i figured out my weekly routine.. i can only touch the net during weekends.. which means i will only blog on weekends.. yeap.. exams are just around the corner.. i'm suprisingly started studying.. but yeah.. not fully concentrating on it.. just studying for the sake of getting better results then my previous test.. yeap. it was horrible..i started to study just 2 weeks before exams for the mid-term.. despite observing my not-so-good results.. i've decided that i have to study harder...at the moment.. play hard to.. ahaha!!!.. last saturday was the finals of the basketball competition.. don't know why but there is a place for 5th.. and yeah.. we were told to play for it.. but i had to get the best of both worlds.. i made plans with my football pals as well... but tears of joy.. we were gonna play at the same place..haha..i meant at court 2.. where theres a futsal court and a basketball court beside it.. i didn't know wat to wear though.. so i just wore a basketball pants and a football top.. and i brought a basketball jersy.. heh. our game was after the semifinals...so played hard we did.. i scored the first ball with a suprising 3-pointer.. hehe.. then didn't get the chance to score later.. without any notice.. we were playing a full court press.. they had a hard time passing the ball out.. and they seriously did.. giving us about a few balls to score... we thaught we were losing at the start.. but OMG.. we were leading like.. allot!!.. and it was in adcance a 4 on 5.. haha.. shyen played the first half and didn't touch the ball.. i think.. sarina played the second.. and she could've touched the ball ... HAHA!!.. but yeah... we still won.. a crushing 24-4... awesome huh?!?!..played football again after that...i rang the upper post with a super shot!!.. which reminds me of interclass 5 on 5 where i took a volley from before the half court line .. thingking it was going for a goal.. it hit the upper post.. damn!!.. if the post was a few inch higher.. my best two shots.. haha.. then saturday was over as i was tired the whole afternoon.. sunday was yet another story.. skipped TQG. haha sorry.. went to the club that morning... played basketball and check out this snapshot!!

HAH!!.. SHAWTY!!

cool huh??..i edited it.. hehe played golf after that.. yeap..i'm starting to love it.. furthest i hit was about more than 100m.. good enough for a starter like me... hehe. i guess.. then went swimming ..schools boring.. oh ya.. mind my layout.. i have to time for it now...just toooooo busy hah.. i finnaly cut my freaking long hair!!.. haha.. no.. teacher didn't complain . i'm just sick of it.. shorter hair is much better... hehe wanna see it??.. no pics.. sorry..

I'M OUT!!

shadows fill an empty heart

as love is fading

from all the things that we are

but are not saying

can we see beyond the scars

and make it to the dawn?

change the colours of the sky

and open up to

the ways you made me feel alive

are the ways i loved you

from all the things that never died

to make it through the night

and love will find you

what about now?

what about today?

what if you're making me

more than i was meant to be?

what if our love

never went away?

what if its lost behind

words we can never find?

baby before its too late

what about now?

the sun is breaking in your eyes

to start a new day

this broken heart can still survive

with a touch of your grace

shadows fade into the light

i am by your side

when love will find you

now that we're here

now that we've come this far

just hold on

theres nothing to fear

for i am right beside you

for all my life

what about now?

on the edge

Do you ever feel like breakin down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong here
AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS YOU???
Do you ever wanna run away ?
Do you LOCK YOURSELF IN YOUR ROOM?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears ya SCREAMIN!!!

yes you will know what it's like
When nothin' feels alright
You would know what it's like
To be like me

To be HURT
To feel LOST
To be LEFT OUT IN THE DARK
To be KICKED when your DOWN
feel like you've been PUSHED AROUND
To be on the edge of breakin' down
With no one there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
WELCOME TO MY LIFE!!!

Do you wanna be somebody else
Are you sick of feeling so left out
Are you desperate to find somethin' more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate(not really)
Are you sick of everyone around you(some of them)
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleedin'

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there

and you'll never know when the things that are just in front of you are the things you need to live untill they're gone

OMG!!..i was actually stupid.. a fool!!..haha

but all thanks to crystal chow!!..weee!!..THANK YOU!!

i found the key yo my retarded blog..and it was actually not one.. wakaka!!!.. woo-hoo!!.. yeah man!!

i'm on the edge but i'm coming back to the top babeh!

no way!!.. i'm not gonna share with you how syupid i was.. only crystal knows!!.. wakaka.. woo-hoo!!.. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my taste for this blog has just reach the boiling point man!!..

TILL THE NEXT POST PEOPLE!!!

I'M OUT!!! TO THE MOUTH WATERING WORLD OF WONDERS!!!

breaks over

i'm back to blogging.. theres only one simple reason why i'm having this chance to do so... its da weekend!! woo-hoo!! yeah!!....no..i'm still upset. haizzz.. homeworks are pilling up again.. but hey.. i'm trying my best to finish those stressing stuff.. damn it!!.. wats wrong with my freaking blog?!?!..i can't change the font or the text size or the colour.. sheesh!!...retard freak!!...
but i manage to change my blog skin.. haha. after sooo long of looking for one.. but this isn't good enough.. don't worry.. i'll find one that suits my bloggie perfectly.. aiks. heh..
OMG!!!!i forgot to copy and paste my chatbox and links!!!.. shit shit shit!!..i hate myself!!!.. aaaahhhhhH!H!!!!
i'm devastated!!.. my blogs doomed!!..its cruched by me!!!.. nnnooooO!!!.. no.. i can't let this happen.. i have to change this luck from happening.. hais...
i'm sick and tired.and somehow for once i don't know why.. maybe i do know.. just that i can't see it..

A ROSE FOR YOU...